Is anyone really cut out for a relationship? Is anyone really able to understand that in all relationships there will be problems? If I leave you and move on to someone else, then what? I will have problems with them. What looks good now will, too, be a problem later. It just happens that way. We are always trying to run away from something. At least I am. Moving from one relationship to another to satiate, alleviate, mitigate, pain from a previous hurt.
The love inside me. Why don't I channel that enough? What makes me think that my life is dependent on and contingent upon another person's validation of who I am? Since when? Why? What would happen if I put that much effort into myself? Waiting for that call, that email, that text message. It doesn't make sense. Because that moment of waiting passes and I move on to the next moment of waiting. My life passes by with me waiting for each moment and when it comes, I move on to the next.
Peace. Where is peace? In my heart or my mind? Why do I make others responsible for my peace? In thinking others have control of my life, is where I will never have control or peace. Controlling another autonomous being is not possible. In the attempts to control others, we make it a point then to not work on ourselves. If I am busy fixing you, loving you, nurturing you, I don't do me. I become resentful. I think you took time away from me. No, you didn't. I am at fault.
We are always at fault for whatever happens to us. It is never anyone else's fault. The moment we blame someone else, we have lost. It is evident we are always responsible because no two people react to a situation the same. There is no objective truth to the world. It is purely subjective.
The love inside me. Why don't I channel that enough? What makes me think that my life is dependent on and contingent upon another person's validation of who I am? Since when? Why? What would happen if I put that much effort into myself? Waiting for that call, that email, that text message. It doesn't make sense. Because that moment of waiting passes and I move on to the next moment of waiting. My life passes by with me waiting for each moment and when it comes, I move on to the next.
Peace. Where is peace? In my heart or my mind? Why do I make others responsible for my peace? In thinking others have control of my life, is where I will never have control or peace. Controlling another autonomous being is not possible. In the attempts to control others, we make it a point then to not work on ourselves. If I am busy fixing you, loving you, nurturing you, I don't do me. I become resentful. I think you took time away from me. No, you didn't. I am at fault.
We are always at fault for whatever happens to us. It is never anyone else's fault. The moment we blame someone else, we have lost. It is evident we are always responsible because no two people react to a situation the same. There is no objective truth to the world. It is purely subjective.
